Showing posts with label I hate the 2 ww. Show all posts
Showing posts with label I hate the 2 ww. Show all posts

Thursday, May 29, 2008

I Wish My Boobs Hurt

It has been a tough couple of days.  Of course the 2ww is by definition agonizing, but this time I am having such a hard time being hopeful.  I feel downright pessimistic.  And then guilty for putting negative thoughts out into the universe, and into my uterus.

Found out yesterday that none of the other three embryos made it to freezing.  I then spent an hour lamenting the fact that (in my funk) that means none of the three we transferred made it. Talk to JD (my new blog name for husband), who is also sad.  He points out we had no intention of pursuing another FET so maybe God is just being kind and saving us from deciding what to do with them. Humph.  Then he calls our RE, who says it has no bearing on whether we'll get pregnant or not.

Apparently 50% of cycles have something to freeze, period.  No matter whether they are successful or not.  He says firmly there is no correlation, that essentially we selected the best embryos to transfer and so left the worst and that makes it difficult to ever figure out what it all means.  He does say if you get pregnant on a cycle that also provided frozen embryos then a subsequent FET is more likely to be successful.  Also agrees with JD that these are the best embryos we've ever produced.  This is mildly comforting to me.

I move on to lament a complete and utter lack of pregnancy symptoms.  I know, I know.  Still.

I go to Costco and buy a 4 pack of HPTs.  I try to figure out when I can POAS with any degree of accuracy.  Also try and figure out what day PO I am.  Do you count the ER day as Day 1?   Who the hell knows (if you know, please tell me).

I haven't done it yet.  But I want to.

On the upside I did find a very cute new top at TJMaxx...it's rather blousey (sp?), may work as an early maternity top.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

They were compacted!

I called the RE's office to get the whole poop on the embryos' cell counts.  The three that were transferred were all 8-cell (yea!), and two of those were compacted (huh? Accompanied by Scooby Doo like shaking of the head).  The nurse (and Dr. Google) says that means they were about to divide again.  At which point they would be morulas.  The others were an 8-cell, a 6-cell and a 5-cell.  I don't know what they've done since or how many got frozen.

So definitely the best embryos we have ever produced. Maybe the wheatgrass (ack!), zinc, fish oil (ack! ack!), acupuncture and working out helped.  Or maybe I am being led down the primrose path yet again.  

It is Day 4 s/p 3 day transfer...